Tuesday, October 31, 2006

sorta sad isn't it...
but in a happy nostalgic
sad kind of way.

& like how it always is,
it ends for it to begin.

b.

my everything & nothing at 6:29 PM |a

can anybody out there hear me,
cos i can't seem to hear myself.
can anybody out there see me,
cos i can't seem to see myself.
there's gotta be a heaven somewhere
can you save me from this hell

can anybody out there feel me,
cos i can't seem to feel myself.

losing my way, keep losing my way,
can you help me find my way?

a little bit more faith,
that's what i need -
to live, to love, to sing
... to be.

i am scarred, i am scared
but ultimately, i know...
i am loved.

& it's all ok.

... & with a little faith,
i know it's all going to be
... OK.


hi rockstar,

don't crumble under pressure.

love,
mom.



i want to come home to
collapse into your arms.

i want you to come home
so i can collapse in yours.


always your rawkstar,
b.

my everything & nothing at 3:10 PM |a

Monday, October 09, 2006

the weekend came & went,
leaving me breathless &
oh-so-totally overwhelmed.

i've waited 23 years for this,
i've waited 23 years for you.

it was slightly too much
for my weak little heart.
but i'm happy because
faith, love & support
was all in the right place,
& all at the right time...

just when i was about to
give up & give into
evil thoughts, evil words,
evil people in my life.

my interview is out.

thank you all for believing
in me even when i stopped
believing in myself...
you all know who you are.

it was all worth it.

i've built my house on your cloud.

b.

my everything & nothing at 1:22 PM |a

Wednesday, October 04, 2006

it feels like forever since
you walked through those doors,
the minute, my minute...

when the world froze,
where everything stopped -
for the minute, my minute.

when my heart dropped to my knees
& i couldn't hear it anymore -
for the minute, my minute.

for everyday i will have
to fight my complexes...
come home to me, bay.'

i miss you.

b.

my everything & nothing at 11:33 AM |a