this is why i love my friends...

go hide in your bubble, boo...
where nobody can reach you,
where nobody can touch you,
where nobody can hurt you...

where nobody can love you,
where nobody can ultimately...
make you happy.


look at it this way babe...
run yourself into the wall
so many times already...
but still ok.

what's one more time?


go for it, go where your
heart tells you.


you ARE crazy, but i love you
& i'll catch you if you fall.


everything is worth fighting for.
if not you'll regret it.

b.

i've found it... affinity.
the thing i've longed for
the one thing that has
eluded me for truly,
the longest of time.

it's crazy, i know...
but i'm not going to
let it slip through
my fingers this time.
the same fingers that
has let too many things
slip right by them & me
time & time again.

friends, i've decided
to pin my bleeding heart
on my tattered sleeve...
promise you'll catch me
if i fall 10 floors down?

she's beautiful to me,
in everyway possible.

hello, my name is crazy.

i've got my toolbelt ready
you called for mr fix it?

b.

will this seeming failure
become the success story
of this young artist?

will the world of
this young artist
be painted out in
pastel, oils or
water colour?

will this painting
be the masterpiece
that replaces piccasso
on those pearly
white walls?

& will these walls
hear this young artist?
they do say...
that walls do
have ears.

are you truly the one
i've been waiting for
all my life?

b.

my beautiful one,

quick, come away with me...
let us leave all this behind.
we will pick up the pieces
and try to make sense of it all.
just you and i.

b.

take me from the reality
of my tattered life.
i'm drowning in the waters
seemingly calm & still.
i'm trapped in the hole
i've dug for myself...
i need some help,
some satisfaction,
some fulfillment,
some excitement,
some contentment,
some love.

b

juggling work, life & love
over the course of the weekend.
you know me, i'm sitting down
wishing for so much more.

can we stop time for a while
to pick up the pieces?

it's just you & me
against the world,
baby.

b.

it simple amazes & astounds me,
how madness meets somewhere in
between the hands of 4 & 5...
where potent dreams intertwines
with brutal reality.

crazy is the forecast all week.

poison sticks & red bull
have now become the order
of my long long night.

b.

let's take a chance.

let's run off in the summer sunshine,
making the best of idealistic dreams.
i'll unstrap those 10 tonne baggages
you have carried on your back,
& check them onto the next flight
out of hong kong international.

we'll leave the questions at the door
& turn off the damned doorbell...
maybe we'll open the door one day.
maybe, just maybe.

let's take out the chequebook
& pay off the paparazzi...
we'll live in silence far away
from the noise of empty minds
who're gambling & enquiring
on what we both know...
but wouldn't say.

we'll film a 2006 remake of
La Dolce Vita.

i'll make you breakfast,
if you'll make our bed.

b.

since everyone else has done
at least one of these...

bold truth :

01. Bought everyone in the pub a drink
02. Swam with wild dolphins
03. Climbed a mountain
04. Taken a Ferrari for a test drive
05. Been inside the Great Pyramid
06. Held a tarantula
07. Taken a candlelit bath with someone
08. Said "I love you" and meant it
09. Hugged a tree
10. Done a striptease
11. Bungee jumped
12. Visited Paris
13. Watched a lightning storm at sea
14. Stayed up all night long, and watch the sun rise
15. Seen the Northern Lights
16. Gone to a huge sports game
17. Walked the stairs to the top of the leaning Tower of Pisa
18. Grown and eaten your own vegetables
19. Touched an iceberg
20. Slept under the stars
21. Changed a baby's diaper
22. Taken a trip in a hot air balloon
23. Watched a meteor shower
24. Gotten drunk on champagne
25. Given more than you can afford to charity
26. Looked up at the night sky through a telescope
27. Had an uncontrollable giggling fit at the worst possible moment
28. Had a food fight
29. Bet on a winning horse
30. Taken a sick day when you're not ill
31. Asked out a stranger
32. Had a snowball fight
33. Photocopied your bottom on the office photocopier
34. Screamed as loudly as you possibly can
35. Held a lamb
36. Enacted a favorite fantasy
37. Taken a midnight skinny dip
38. Taken an ice cold bath
39. Had a meaningful conversation with a beggar
40. Seen a total eclipse
41. Ridden a roller coaster
42. Hit a home run
43. Fit three weeks miraculously into three days
44. Danced like a fool and not cared who was looking
45. Adopted an accent for an entire day
46. Visited the birthplace of your ancestors
47. Actually felt happy about your life, even for just a moment
48. Had two hard drives for your computer
49. Visited all 50 states
50. Loved your job for all accounts
51. Taken care of someone who was shit faced
52. Had enough money to be truly satisfied
53. Had amazing friends
54. Danced with a stranger in a foreign country
55. Watched wild whales
56. Stolen a sign
57. Backpacked in Europe
58. Taken a road-trip
59. Rock climbing
60. Lied to foreign government's official in that country to avoid notice
61. Midnight walk on the beach
62. Sky diving
63. Visited Ireland
64. Been heartbroken longer than you were actually in love
65. In a restaurant, sat at a stranger's table and had a meal with them
66. Visited Japan
67. Benchpressed your own weight
68. Milked a cow
69. Alphabetized your records
70. Pretended to be a superhero
71. Sung karaoke
72. Lounged around in bed all day
73. Posed nude in front of strangers
74. Scuba diving
75. Got it on to "Let's Get It On" by Marvin Gaye
76. Kissed in the rain
77. Played in the mud
78. Played in the rain
79. Gone to a drive-in theater
80. Done something you should regret, but don't regret it
81. Visited the Great Wall of China
82. Discovered that someone who's not supposed to have known about your blog has discovered your blog
83. Dropped Windows in favor of something better
84. Started a business
85. Fallen in love and not had your heart broken
86. Toured ancient sites
87. Taken a martial arts class
88. Swordfought for the honor of a woman
89. Played D&D for more than 6 hours straight
90. Gotten married
91. Been in a movie
92. Crashed a party
93. Loved someone you shouldn't have
94. Kissed someone so passionately it made them dizzy
95. Gotten divorced
96. Had sex at the office
97. Gone without food for 5 days
98. Made cookies from scratch
99. Won first prize in a costume contest
100. Ridden a gondola in Venice
101. Gotten a tattoo
102. Found that the texture of some materials can turn you on
103. Rafted the Snake River
104. Been on television news programs as an "expert"
105. Got flowers for no reason
106. Masturbated in a public place
107. Got so drunk you don't remember anything
108. Been addicted to some form of illegal drug
109. Performed on stage
110. Been to Las Vegas
111. Recorded music
112. Eaten shark - *sheepish*
113. Had a one-night stand
114. Gone to Thailand
115. Seen Siouxsie live
116. Bought a house
117. Been in a combat zone
118. Buried one/both of your parents
119. Shaved or waxed your pubic hair off
120. Been on a cruise ship
121. Spoken more than one language fluently
122. Gotten into a fight while attempting to defend someone
123. Bounced a check
124. Performed in Rocky Horror
125. Read - and understood - your credit report
126. Raised children
127. Recently bought and played with a favorite childhood toy
128. Followed your favorite band/singer on tour
129. Created and named your own constellation of stars
130. Taken an exotic bicycle tour in a foreign country
131. Found out something significant that your ancestors did
132. Called or written your Congress person
133. Picked up and moved to another city to just start over
134. ... more than once?
135. Walked the Golden Gate Bridge
136. Sang loudly in the car, and didn't stop when you knew someone was looking
137. Had an abortion or your female partner did
138. Had plastic surgery
139. Survived an accident that you shouldn't have survived
140. Wrote articles for a large publication
141. Lost over 100 pounds
142. Held someone while they were having a seizure
143. Piloted an airplane
144. Petted a stingray
145. Broken someone's heart
146. Helped an animal give birth
147. Been fired or laid off from a job
148. Won money on a T.V. game show
149. Broken a bone
150. Killed a human being
151. Gone on an African photo safari
152. Ridden a motorcycle
153. Driven any land vehicle at a speed of greater than 100mph
154. Had a body part of yours below the neck pierced
155. Fired a rifle, shotgun, or pistol
156. Eaten mushrooms that were gathered in the wild
157. Ridden a horse
158. Had major surgery
159. Had sex on a moving train
160. Had a snake as a pet
161. Hiked to the bottom of the Grand Canyon
162. Slept through an entire flight: takeoff, flight, and landing
163. Slept for more than 30 hours over the course of 48 hours
164. Visited more foreign countries than U.S. states
165. Visited all 7 continents
166. Taken a canoe trip that lasted more than 2 days
167. Eaten kangaroo meat
168. Fallen in love at an ancient Mayan burial ground
169. Been a sperm or egg donor
170. Eaten sushi
171. Had your picture in the newspaper
172. Had 2 (or more) healthy romantic relationships for over a year in your lifetime
173. Changed someone's mind about something you care deeply about
174. Gotten someone fired for their actions
175. Gone back to school
176. Parasailed
177. Changed your name
178. Petted a cockroach
179. Eaten fried green tomatoes
180. Read The Iliad
181. Selected one "important" author who you missed in school, and read
182. Dined in a restaurant and stolen silverware, plates, cups because your apartment needed them
183. ... and gotten 86’ed from the restaurant because you did it so many times, they figured out it was you
184. Taught yourself an art from scratch
185. Killed and prepared an animal for eating
186. Apologized to someone years after inflicting the hurt
187. Skipped all your school reunions
188. Communicated with someone without sharing a common spoken language
189. Been elected to public office
190. Written your own computer language
191. Thought to yourself that you're living your dream
192. Had to put someone you love into hospice care
193. Built your own PC from parts
194. Sold your own artwork to someone who didn't know you
195. Had a booth at a street fair
196: Dyed your hair
197: Been a DJ
198: Found out someone was going to dump you via LiveJournal
199: Written your own role playing game
200: Been arrested

b.

it's been a while since us...
a couple of weeks in actuality,
a couple of months in my head

... but yet some things...
JUST DON'T CHANGE.

i'll call you back in 2.
& "2" never came.

b.

boo is on a roll tonight :

the broken girl from hong kong.


i saw a sign today, "discover hong kong".
i remembered a girl i had met,
just a week before.
this broken girl from hong kong,
had no more tears in her eyes,
she's all cried out.

don't cry no more.
you'll be safe, i'm sure.
don't speak your words of sorrow.
it'll all be better tomorrow....
you'll see.

i'm recovering, she says to me.
she reminds me when i was a mess,
just a year before.
this broken girl from hong kong,
is worth so much more,
she just fails to see.

don't cry no more.
you'll be safe, i'm sure.
don't speak your words of sorrow.
it'll all be better tomorrow....
you'll see...
what i mean...
you'll see.

you will be unbroken.
by the words that remain unspoken.

ohhhhh...

could it be me?

we'll see.

we'll see.

b.

ok, had time to record another one.
so here we go :

on the planet's edge.


it's early sunday mornin'
i am wakin' on the planet's edge.
i'm sleep-walkin', sleep- talkin'.
with notes playin' in my head.

BAM BAM BAM...

is that you inside of me?
playin' tricks inside my head?
i must be sleepin', still dreamin'.
not the way it's supposed to be.

i'm waking up now.
hell, i'm waking up.
well, i've played too long
on the planet's edge.

whatever happened to champagne dreams?
of a million bubbles in that little glass?
it's all or nothin', come down crashin'.
i can hear it in my ears...

BAM BAM BAM...

will you come & get me, please?
pulling me off the planet's edge.
i need some healin', some savin',
i'm not the one i used to be.

i'm waking up now.
hell, i'm waking up.
well, i've waited too long
on the planet's edge.

baby, what's up with the
bitter-sweet symphony?
this symphony?

BAM BAM BAM....

bitter-sweet symphony.
this symphony.

b.

friends, boo has a couple of new songs
... but just one for today :

once upon a starry night.


well our moment's come & gone,
has it all come down to none?
our jokes, our adoring eyes...
oh... how i hate goodbyes.

now you've gone away,
i'd understand.
just do me a favour
& find a good man.

fade away into the softest moonlight.
i hate to say it but i guess they were right.
there's no such thing as
once upon a starry night.

all the seconds, minutes & hours,
was it not meant to be ours?
our time, our memories..
another chapter in our stories.

don't trust my words,
they'll betray my heart.
don't read my actions,
they won't play the part.

fade away into the softest moonlight.
i hate to say it but i guess they were right.
there's no such thing as
once upon a starry night.

please don't worry
about me darlin',
please just promise
you'll keep dancin'.

fade away into the softest moonlight.
i hate to say it but i guess they were right.
there's no such thing as
once upon a starry night.

oh... a starry night.
please dream of me tonight.
once upon a starry night.

b.

my salvation tonight came in the form
of a sweet little furball named jadey -
she's watched me as i've watched her,
though never intimate, never near.

but tonight, as if she knew innately
that my heart was crying out...
she came, uncalled & unannounced.

i spoke, i cried, i ranted, i yelled...
she looked at me with those pearly eyes
... unassuming, non-judgemental...
as i fought the thoughts in my head
that were alternating between
"just another glass of poison",
"just another stick of bliss".

she stroked my face with her little paws,
as tears welled up in my pained eyes,
she purred softly on my tummy,
we listened to each other breathe,
then she left her paw on my heart...
taking my mind off the turbulence
of the life i'm currently leading.

one thing is ringing in my head :
i would've loved to love you &
take care of you.

i want to collapse in someone's arms.
& sleep a dreamless, peaceful sleep.

i'm waking on the planet's edge,
i'm plotting my escape. tonight.

b.