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Sunday, February 26, 2006

i really think i shot myself in the head today.
i'm really sorry, t... if you only knew the half of it.

as for you, i think you dealt a really low blow
... even by your despicable standards.

*note to self :
relaxants & alcohol REALLY don't mix -
do not attempt again.

b.

Friday, February 24, 2006

i attend to her even though
i'm sick as a dog today...
i still got back to her after
a run to the doctor's.
she drives me nuts with stress
but i still love her dearly.
i give her money.
i pay her bills.

hello world, meet my new girl...
(graphi)kate.

b.

Thursday, February 23, 2006

*note to self :
1. wakeboarding & medication
just don't mix.

2. listen to T before she goes
all live, loud & loco on you.

3. you need a blue-skied holiday.

b.

Wednesday, February 22, 2006

the best parts of my everydays so far
are stolen moments with you...
every hour, minute or second.
every breath, touch, kiss or hug.

you put a smile on my face.
you know that don't you?

b.

i can still feel the touch of your hand.
i can still hear your laughter in my ears.
i can still smell the phantom smell
of you lingering around me.

& each time i close my eyes for a moment,
all i hear are the songs we've chosen.

between us, there are no
"whens" & "ifs" & "hows" & "whys".
is this the taste of emotional freedom?

i know i'm dancing...

& i hope you dance.

b.

Tuesday, February 21, 2006

i am pleased to announce that
the "feed G.I. boo" campaign
is a resounding success with
a whopping 115 packets of
instant noodles being pledged!

a very sweet & generous donor
(who shall remain annoymous)
has also pledged to buy me
as many instant noodles it takes
to feed poor, starving G.I. boo...
who just happens to be hungry
every god-damned 2 hours!

i assure everyone that i will still
have a healthy, balanced diet
by adding eggs, vegetables & meat
(would anyone like to donate these
simple items to this good cause?)
to my donated instant noodles...
ala hongkong cafe style.

i promise to buy a hair-wig when
graphikate interactive pays off...
since my hair would've fallen off
me like leaves in autumn from
all that msg!

boo's word of the day:
ajinomoto.

b.

Monday, February 20, 2006

there's a kind of stillness
admist this seeming chaos.
there's a kind of safefy
admist seeming danger.
there's a kind of certainty
admist seeming uncertainty.
there's a kind of similarity
admist all our differences.
there's a kind of warmth
admist reality's coldness.

i suppose that is the best part
about riding the waves instead of
trying your hardest to control it.

surf's up.

b.

Sunday, February 19, 2006

boo's diet plan now has a name:
graphikate interactive pte ltd.

i have been punching numbers
furiously into the calculator
since 8pm... thankyouverymuch.
& still trying my hardest to believe
the numbers that showed on screen.

i am getting heartburn from the stress.

will someone pls donate some
instant noodles this way?

b.

Saturday, February 18, 2006

t, guess my theory is true then! :)

that all those seemingly "right"
things or situations can go wrong...
& they have gone wrong numerous
times in my life already.

... so one can only wonder if a
seemingly "wrong" thing or situation
can actually be right.

we'll see, we'll see. be positive!

come home soon! i deserve a big hug.
& some of that tlc... grin.

on repeat : jason mraz

i'm dreaming of sleeping next to you,
i'm feeling like a lost little boy
in a brand new town.

i'm counting my sheep & each one
that passes is another dream to ashes,
& they all fall down.

& as i lay me down tonight
i close my eyes...
what, what a beautiful sight.

sleeping to dream about you,
& i'm so tired...
of having to live without you,
but i don't mind.
sleeping to dream about you,
& i'm so tired...

oh oh! & before i forget...

i hope she has become a better fuck
since you've been constantly telling me
how dreadful she was in bed! ha.

you should know who you are,
thankyouverymuch.

b.

Thursday, February 16, 2006

please fill this out for me boys & girls...
it would be interesting to see what you think!

please be honest... but not TOO HONEST! ;)

the truth revealed.

b.

i took a drive home from punggol today.
if there's one thing wakeboarding taught me,
it's to stare fear dead in the eyes & say,
"you're not scaring me anymore".

my hands might be shivering now...
but i got home safe with the car in one piece.

i won't let you rule my life anymore.
i've held my head too low for too long.

b.

Wednesday, February 15, 2006

how can one be crazy & beautiful all at the same time?

classic example of the head vs the heart.
though i've learnt the hard way that a headache
is so much easier to cure than a heartache.
& that what feels right, might actually be wrong.
so maybe, what feels wrong might actually be right?

put your money on the table, boo...
cos if you don't, you don't win & you don't lose.
& that just isn't what life is about.

i think too much? well, so do you.
'nuff said.

b.

Tuesday, February 14, 2006

i'm laying my heart on the line,
& my head on the chopping board.

are you willing to do the same for me?

b.

Monday, February 13, 2006

i think my biggest problem in life is,
simply put, that i don't know how
to play the game.

will someone teach me the rules pls?

oh, the games people play.

b.

Sunday, February 12, 2006

only one word today:
t a m a d e.

b.

Saturday, February 11, 2006

4 long hours of a deadly nightmare,
4 stolen hours of my own reality...
i suppose the only difference is
that i'm waiting to wake up.

oh my god. oh my god.

how can one person cheat death
so many times, so many ways?

am i living on borrowed days?

b.

Wednesday, February 08, 2006

i took a wrong turn & ended up
on a one-way street.

i've tried.

b.

have you all heard the word on the street?

... well i have, & it goes something like this...

"i've been wondering who sophia's new gf is,
because i've been hearing everyone saying that
(listen carefully, now)... she's rich."

oooooooooooo... heard that, people?
i have been upgraded... I'M RICH!

as someone once maliciously threw in my face,
"ya, you like shit money what".

yes... mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm...
i'm waiting for the day i can shit enough dough
from my money-making ass to buy myself
a spanking new mazda rx 8, & a bmw 7-series...
& a palace on 6th avenue.

bravissima!

b.

Monday, February 06, 2006

what perplexes me is how time is so relative.

why is it that when you're not next to me,
my mental clock runs at approximately
60,000 secs / min, 60,000 mins / hour...
& 24,000 hours / day.

... but yet, when we're together again,
it always just seems to be a bullet train ride.

you make me giggle like elmo on drugs.
you have taught me to be thankful...
like old men are of viagra.

b.

Friday, February 03, 2006

something's been on my mind all day,
(other than the pain from a cracked ankle)
it was about a question you asked
after our "turning in" cigarette.

i said that i would never do this for anyone.
& you asked me why. why you. why now.

i have a logical, rational explation now,
instead of only taking feelings into my
well-calculated consideration.

there is only one answer i can give you :
i believe in fate... in dame destiny.

i believe that there's a reason we met.
i believe that there's a reason we fell in love.
i believe that there's a reason shit fell on our heads.
i believe that there's a reason our hearts we broken.
i believe that in life, there are no accidents.

more importantly than all that...
i believe in you, & i believe in us.

i have made a million mistakes in my life,
& i'm not going to make another mistake
by letting you go... not like this, not for this.

i will be your strength when you have none left.
i will be your hope when you can't believe anymore.
i will be your light when you are shrouded in darkness.
i will be your faith when you can't muster it yourself.
i will listen to you, to your thoughts & your dreams.
i will find you even if everyone else has given up.
i will love you even if the world decides not to.
i will believe in you even if the world doesn't.
i will believe in you even if you don't.

you came at a time where i was thrown,
unwillingly, into the deep end.
i was lost, empty & afraid...
but you changed that,
so don't ever think
that you're any less
than special.

today, i will pin my heart on my sleeve
& tell you with all honesty & all sincerity,
that i believe. no maybes today.

thank you, my destiny, for the gift of... you,
;) my curry-pok girl.

b.